Oh please let it rain today
I can't see what, but it's
blinding me, and there's no
time, washed out to the sea
and now I'm, drifting
aimlessly...
Help me please, I don't know
she seems so convincingly
real...
--Spiel22@futuresouth.com
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the emptiness I feel
I'm terrified because I don't know anymore...
That one telepathy-
it's gone and I'm bitter.
The ground under my feet is spinning
careening out of control
can't hold on to sanity
when I see you like this.
You say you're lonely
how could that be when it used to--
so perfect
Are you cruel
or do you just not know
how badly
your melancholy blindsides me.
All I can do is close my eyes
and say to my tortured thoughts-
"This is not happening."
shouldn't feel this way
but the guilt is choking me.
I can't be craving you now
-so what is this desperation?
-confused, blood is rushing
to my head
I feel like I am burning
-Burning, melting to ashes
-to nothing-
Nothing is what you should mean to me
but I need you
All I need is everything
I can't sleep, can't speak
-only spending sleepless nights
utterances of your name
enveloped in sorrow
screaming my mind
screaming to deafness
Not true-
I'm shattering
I've learned is nothing
Twisting to turn
turning to yours
but not there
tearing eyes
burning soul
need you now
but no speech conveys
Not- true
can't be
Not- true
just tell me
-incoherence-
Bitter tasting blood
caress my lips
washed in blood
awash in pain
No control
-spinning wishes-
Everything I was-
am-
affected by you
Someday I won't matter
You won't matter
to me
Someday nothing will change
Someday never comes
Change is hate
Change is pain
Don't leave me
-here-
alone
no escape
from what used to
be
staring into space
no tears can come
fighting the pain
fighting release of truth
shut my eyes
to black
black is all i feel
black is all i am
black is me
black is you
darkness speaks
black
soured life turns to
black
soured emotions turn to
black
nothingness turns to
black
feelings turn to
black
who i am
without you
i am nothing
-LunaStarSP@aol.com
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